Still here

I know I haven’t blogged in forever. There comes a certain point during one’s absence from blogland that it begins to feel nearly impossible to get back into the swing of things. That’s where I am now.

The concept of trying to catch the blogosphere up on the last six months of my universe is preposterous. There was a boy, then there wasn’t a boy. There was Papa Knascar’s lung cancer, then there was less of Papa Knascar’s lung cancer (not quite ‘less’ enough, though). Currently, there was a job and in a week, there will be no job.

I’ve been so wrapped up in dealing with my dad’s chaos that I haven’t been able to focus on the fact that in a week, I’ll be unemployed.  I’m nauseous and terrified and in total denial and procrastinating on doing anything important, like, oh, updating ye olde resume? I should probably get cracking on that.  Mostly I’m crippled by the knowledge that I have no idea what I want to do when I grow up and I hate the idea of having to search for a job with that much indecision and lack of focus.  Unfortunately, unless my psychic friend gives me the winning lottery numbers, I’m going to have to figure something out.

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One thought on “Still here

  1. Jeanne B. says:

    Wow, you’re going through Chaos right now. Been there done that!!! Sending you big hugs {{{{knascar}}}}. I’ll pass on some Grey’s Anatomy wisdom gleaned from last night’s premier. The final narrative was about change, how for some it’s death, for others it’s a second chance or a new beginning—it’s all in how you look at it. I know change is scary, and sometimes really painful. But I have faith that once these changes sort themselves out and fall into place, you’ll find out you’re just fine, and the changes were good. That’s my hope for you.

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